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I've been in love before, all stages and what-not, but has it been this powerful. When I know I can talk to him, my heart jumps out my body and is already on a flight to the clouds and his voice makes it just skip a few beats. This is something that is amazing. I want to be 18 and I want to be gone and in his arms right now. I don't care if we are married or not, it doesn't mean anything. We are one and it's so true. He is me and I am him. There is no way around it, there is no way out of this perfect love. If I were to lose him I wouldn't be able to live. There would be no more love after him. God just thinking about him is making my heart beat faster and I miss him more and more right now. My dreams are always about him and I think that it might seem like obsession, but it's not. It's pure love, sweet and strong.
Most of you know that I'm terrified to have kids, because I don't want to be an abusive parent like my father was to me. I thought I could see myself having kids with Ryan, but I never actually saw it. With Zyke, I can see that. I was that. I want to be a wife and a mother with him.. I want to raise our kids. Someone, please understand me, please. I won't get hurt and I know some of you are worried about that, but it won't happen. If he were to hurt me he would be hurting himself. Please understand.
I love Zyke, with everything I am. Heart and Soul, Body and Mind. All of me.
- Location:at home
- Mood:
loved - Music:Swing, Swing- All American Rejects
How are we suppose to do birthday stuff. I mean normally with my ex's it's been on his b-day we hang out at his house with his family and on mine we hangout with mine. How are we suppose to that if we share the same day? It's just different. I'm sure we will work something out when it gets to that time. It's just so different.
Well that's my first post in a while, and I need to go finish my chores. So I guess I'll try and get back the next time I can. Be good everyone. Love you all
~Sashabun
- Mood:
amused - Music:Stone Temple Pilots
- Mood:
sick
I swear something happened to me over the summer. I use to never say I was pretty, which I now do everyday and I used to never be happy. It's weird smiling all the time, but sometimes I can't but help smile. I still hate getting my picture taken >.> I should be posting on DL for Brad and Tian, but I'm in a horny lazy mood.
I do need to go though. Must get my uniform ready for CP at the football game. CP is Curtsy Patrol. I guess, I should relax and just let whatever happens happen. I do like this new me though. I like knowing I can be me.
~Sashabun~
- Location:at home
- Mood:
horny - Music:All the same by Sick Puppies
